a long time ago.... I think it was 2006..... we got a family portrait done... I remember my children later comparing the lyrics of a song called " family portrait" to us.... it hurt, but it was true... some of it at least...
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
Let's play pretend, act like it goes naturally
then, 3 years later.... this is what happened.........
In our family portrait we look pretty happy
(Can we work it out? Can we be a family?)
We look pretty normal, let's go back to that
(I promise I'll be better, Daddy please don't
leave)
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Turn around please
Remember that the night you left you took my
shining star?
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Daddy don't leave
Don't leave us here alone
desperate to "move on" and to create a "New Normal".... in 2010 we had our first Family portrait done, missing one......
#1 in 2010 #2 in 2011
# 3 in 2012.jpg)
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today, we had another... # 4 in 2013
before going to get our pictures done, this time, it was only my youngest daughter and I at home getting ready.... the typical "Family Photo shoot Melt Down" happened.....
each of the 4 times.. drama, tears and more drama and tears... finally, today, on our way to the farm, she told me why.... not only because she, being so many years younger always feels insecure and inadequate when she compares herself to her sisters.... but really, because she hates taking family portraits... because , and there it was, we are not a family anymore... I almost broke down and had to control my tears, after all, we were going to a family shoot, needed to look as pretty as possible...... but it totally broke my heart..... almost 4 years after our family broke apart, the youngest member of the family finally verbalized her feelings.... praying that she will choose to go after what has been available to her and all of us all along... she knows about forgiveness and healing and where she can find it... praying that she will seek out the counselling that has helped some of us........
had a nice dinner after we were done and, at least this first "Sneak Peek" photo looks like this was a great photo shoot, smiles all around..... hearts broken, mended in some places, living the consequences... even today... in our family portrait.. we look pretty happy...............................
Touching...I'm glad to know there is and will always be healing. Developing a 'new normal' is never easy as we have a difficult journey on this earth. Many prayers for you and your family.
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