..celebrating the maker of the clouds...

... read this yesterday: "The optimist expects clouds to have a silver lining. The faithful one simply celebrates the maker of the clouds.”

as I have come to know God more and more, as my faith in Him has grown over the years, my approach to "clouds" and "storms" and "torrential downpours" has changed dramatically...

I have met Him and I know that He cares about my troubles...

I have seen Him at work and I know there is nothing that He could not change and make better in a split second...

I am sure without a doubt that He always has my best interest in mind, and really, that only He can know what that means..

I have come to love Him more and more, as I understand His love for me more and more... I know about the safety I find in His arms, I know that looking to Him is what I have to do...

in His Word He reveals many things to me... about Himself and His plan for me...  He tells me to fix my eyes on Him, to focus on eternal things rather than on temporary things, he tells me that there will be troubles, but that He has overcome them.. He tells me that with Him all things are possible... that I can persevere, and that in the end He will bring me safely to His Heavenly Kingdom...

as I seek Him, I am in awe of Him more and more and love Him... nothing compared to how much He loves me yet still a love that is HUGE...

so, when the clouds appear, or more clouds, when a storm is brewing, I don't really change anything, I just snuggle a little deeper into my Daddy's arms, knowing that He will keep me safe, no matter what the storm will bring, accepting pain and suffering as a fact, not something to avoid at all cost by putting up self defence mechanisms like trying to manipulate and control situations or people....

I keep spending my time in His Word, in communion with Him, sharing my heart and all of myself.. trying to follow Him, as good as I can... and leaving the rest to Him...

I celebrate Him, the maker of the clouds, the maker of the sunshine and blessing in my life, because I know that in Him is where my hope is...

my mother, when talking about death recently had said to me she would miss the sunshine, once she died... oh, I was so happy to share with her what the Bible tells us Heaven will be like... she got excited and the plan is now to have rooms next to each other in the mansion that Jesus has promised He would have ready for us....

Praise be to God from whom all blessings flow!!!!!

... self absorbed and DENSE....

trying to imagine how this Heavenly Father of mine is feeling right now... ( about me, that is..)

truth is, He has always "fathered" me well, much better than well........
truth is, He has been there with me, held me, comforted me, blessed me beyond what anyone could ever wish for and imagine..

and here I am.....
His beloved child...
He saved my mother not even 2 weeks ago... allowed me to be the one to lead her to Him...
He has given me a ministry that fulfills me..
He has blessed me with beautiful daughters..
He has given me sweet friends, caring about me and loving me...

and yet..
a stupid, man made day, 10 days ago, ( yes, I am talking about Valentine's Day) a marriage seminar at my church, memories and realities that were a bit more in my face than usually..... okay, and grey, cold and ugly weather... a cold house..

and here I am...
depressed, sad, searching for what I think I need to have.... taking my eyes of Him...

how horribly DENSE.... self absorbed and plain STUPID.... please forgive my language..

I cannot find what God does not have for me... I cannot force or control or manipulate what is not His plan, and in a way, I am soooooooooo thankful for that... because, can you imagine the disaster???????

there is a reason the GOD OF THE UNIVERSE is the One who controls all things... even the "little detail" that makes me all depressed right now...

it's because He knows best... so there... thankful it is Sunday and I can go to church soon, worship Him, take my eyes of myself and focus on what is really important... a prayer meeting tonite as well... good planning Lord, I know you know what you are doing :)

Praise be to the Lord,

    for he has heard my cry for mercy.

 The Lord is my strength and my shield;

    my heart trusts in him, and I am helped.

My heart leaps for joy

    and I will give thanks to him in song.

 The Lord is the strength of his people,

    a fortress of salvation for his anointed one.

Psalm 28:6-8

Father's Love Letter.... from His heart to yours...

this is not the original version... copyright prohibits this .... if you want to see the original go to www.fathersloveletter.com they have it in many languages as well.... this is how He loves us...
Hallelujah!!!!!!!

.. this is what LOVE is....

up early... the benefit of a crazy travel week.. jet lag..off to my work out session soon, I have had the privilege to lift up all I love to my Heavenly Father already this morning...

saw this, posted by Michael W Smith on facebook as well







it made me cry, like Michael had said it would...

isn't this what we all are longing for? to be loved by a person here on earth, who really is "just" trying, by God's grace and strength to love us like the Father in Heaven loves us????

some get to experience this love from a husband, wife, maybe from a father or mother... some, like I feel now get to love their mother or father this way... I pray and hope I love my children like this, and yet I know I fall short...

but this is the Father's love... so, it is available for all who believe...


as tech savvy as I think I am I have had some issue trying to post the Father's love letter here... so please bear with me and watch my next post on here....

God bless you all...

...metastases ... airplanes and the Heavenly Kingdom

recap:

metastases found in my mother's lungs, many of them, in both lungs, but they are still small

flying to Switzerland to accompany my mother to her, or so I thought anyways, first Chemo treatment.. turns out to be appointments with two different Oncologists to decide the action plan..

sharing my faith " black and white"... she prays the prayer and bows her knee before Jesus, her Saviour! Hallelujah

reading tons of scripture to her, and praying together many times... love flowing FREELY.. <3

spending time in a place so full of memories of my married life, good ones and bad ones.. all back in my face...

Valentines Day... I am single, and today it sucks...

trying to help my mother work through some of the hurts, old and new.. my dysfunctional family :(

at airport, to go back, Ex husband with new wife arrives on the plane I am leaving on...  strange and sad..

arrive back and find out that two people I have been praying for passed away from cancer that day, Chris, a young and wonderful friend of a dear friend of mine, and Daisy, a little eight year-old girl that I have been praying for as well...

both Christians and so we can be sure they are with Jesus now, no more pain, no more suffering, but rejoicing in heaven...

blessed to be home and picked up by my lovely daughters I love, exhausted and spent...

---> this is what my Jesus has for me today:

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts,

    neither are your ways my ways,”

declares the Lord.

 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,

    so are my ways higher than your ways

    and my thoughts than your thoughts."

Isaiah 55: 8+9

you can say that one out loud.... I am not going to try to get my head around all this....

instead I am trusting this:

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.

Romans 8:35,37

and THIS:

The Lord will rescue me from every evil attack and will bring me safely to his heavenly kingdom. To him be glory for ever and ever. Amen.

2 Timothy 4:18

AMEN

Cancer, you can't scare us :P

..leaving tomorrow morning again, what a whirlwind of a few days it has been....
my mother, a healthy woman with a sickness, not a sick woman, was reconciled to her Father in Heaven,, a tremendous blessing,
God, our Father, has allowed me to be the one to lead her to Him... He has prepared me to love her well and come to her side in a time of deep need...
was allowed to meet the different doctors and be there to help my mother make good choices..

sharing with her about our Father in Heaven and His love for her, that's what we have been doing most of the time.. a closeness like never before...

cancer ??? well, God can even use a mean disease for His glory, a way to accomplish His good and perfect will for those that love Him, that were called according to His purpose...

it hasn't quite sunken in yet that we are now sisters in Christ and no matter what happens we will be spending eternity together....

I am most blessed, it is amazing.... oh how I love Him, oh how I need Him.....

Jesus, Lover of my soul, Jesus, I will never let you go..

you've taken me, from the miry clay,

Put my feet upon the rock and now I know,

I love you

I need you,

Though my world may fall I never let you go

My Saviour, my closest friend, 

I will worship you until the very end...

The Prodigal Daughter has returned. HALLELUJAH

Heaven is rejoicing...... A lost sheep has heard her shepherd and responded .....
My heart is crying and I am lifting my hands in total praise to you... Oh Lord, my God, I praise you for saving my mother today.

I thank you Lord that in your omnipotence and your infinite wisdom, your unending love and your amazing grace and mercy, you opened the eyes of my mother so she could see you today, for the first time in her almost 73 year long life...

I praise you Lord and thank you that you had it all so perfectly planned out and orchestrated, so it was just one more tiny little step... ( easy peaty pumpkin eater like my little niece would say)

Lord I thank you that you prompted me and equipped me to share with her and not be afraid to ask her if she wanted to ask your forgiveness and become your child...

Oh Lord, this has been my prayer for 20 1/2 years... Oh Lord you are so faithful ,
You are the source of all that is good and you are worthy to be praised...

You are my all and all, my Redeemer, my mother's Redeemer and I will praise you forever and ever
AMEN