..beyond our understanding you are teaching us to trust...

one of the many, many most wonderful things that happen at the Michael W Smith and Friends Events is that we sometimes find out a few things that no one else knows yet.... ooooolala....

but seriously, it is quite amazing to hear 2 songs Michael has been working on for his new "album" that will be coming out some time next spring..

being part of some of the background vocals for one of them was out of this world..
the other one, that he played for us during the Sunday church service is what God has been using in my life over the last few days...

since I love the kind of music he writes, obviously, and love his voice.. :) it's often the lyrics that make a song stand out for me... God uses those to minister to my soul...

this is what this one, and I don't remember if he told us the song title... says:
( and I didn't tape the whole song... so this is all I have)

........ ( missed the first part... )

you are working in our waiting,

you are sanctifying us,

beyond our understanding,

you are teaching us to trust.

your plans are still to prosper,

you have not forgotten us,

your are with us in the fire and the flood,

you are faithful forever,

perfect in love

you are sovereign over us

you are wisdom unimagined,

who could understand your ways,

reigning high above the heavens

reaching down in endless grace..

....... ( missing a phrase here... sorry..)

compassionate and kind

you surround and you uphold me

and your promises are my delight..

your plans are still to prosper,

you have not forgotten us,

your are with us in the fire and the flood,

you are faithful forever,

perfect in love

you are sovereign over us

even what the enemy means for evil

you turn it for our good

 for your glory

even in the valley you are faithful

you are working for our good

for your glory..

your plans are still to prosper,

you have not forgotten us,

your are with us in the fire and the flood,

you are faithful forever,

perfect in love

you are sovereign over us

amazing how God orchestrates things.... perfect comfort at the perfect time... nothing new, just put in words and to music that stirs my soul... 

He has not forgotten me... He is working in the waiting... and He is always working for our good.. for His glory.. because He is faithful...

a wonderful start to a new week... to Him be the glory forever Amen!!!

..physical touch, quality time and affirmation....

took the test and it was confirmed.... :)

I knew it already, but it was good to see it "black and white" so to speak..

I am talking about the 5 love languages.. the first one, far ahead of all the others:

TOUCH......

followed by Quality Time and Words of Affirmation..........

so.... leaving the whole aspect of overstepping boundaries.. moving from the righteous to the sinful... aside...

---> it is not that Jesus is not enough..

it is not that He is not the source of my hope, my joy, my peace... 

it is not that He is not blessing me... it is not that I am not fulfilled serving Him,

it is not that I am not more concerned about the lost.. those that do not know Him yet..

it is not that I do not think of others and care for them and have tremendous compassion for them..

and because of that give generously of myself, my time, my attention and my love...

it is not that I am not thankful for my children, my friends, my church... and all the many blessings He bestows on me daily...

it is not that I will be fine, even when I never get married again....

but.....

TOUCH, QUALITY TIME and WORDS OF AFFIRMATION.... with, like I said, TOUCH far ahead of everything....

that's what I am longing for.... and is this wrong? a sign of weakness? a sign for me not being where I should be? not mature enough? not Christian enough?

He is the One that made me that way.....

so... if I have to live a life without those things... I will cling to my Lord, and trust that He will sustain me... but I do long for the touch.. that communicates love...

a little tidbit of information... you know you are desperately deprived of what communicates love to you when it takes all out of you not to break down crying when your orthodontist works on your teeth...

or your massage therapist massages your face ...

there is nothing I can do about that.

I am thankful that God has shown me how my past and my need for love and acceptance from a real live man had lead me to pass over from righteousness to sin without being willing to call a sin a sin..

I am working through the past events that have somehow distorted my way of dealing with this specific area..

I know now though that I am just that person that God made me, that touchy, feely, affectionate, loving, caring woman, that was made to complement a man and together manifest who God is...

again, if He wants me to remain single, I will... and I will have to rely on Him to stay pure.. and that I will... with all that I have in me..