...Where does my help come from???????

this has been " brewing" for a while in my heart, soul and mind.. trying to process it... please bear with me..
yesterday morning, while driving, like always, I was praying..

 I am still sad sometimes, sad about being alone, sad about my marriage to have ended, sad because there is still profound sadness around me because of it... not too sad, most of the time I am more than full of joy because the Lover of my Soul is always close to me.. but still sad..

figured something out a little while ago, with the help of a most wonderful friend..  figured out that there was a fear that had gripped me.. the fear of being alone for the rest of my life.. that this might be what God has for me...

now as we all know, fear is the opposite of faith.. this fear basically says that I am not too sure that the plans He has for me are that good..  I am not trusting Him...
I have tried to change that.. I have, I do pray, I affirm I trust Him, I dwell on His Word, I ask Him to give me more faith, to help me with this...

 so yesterday morning, while driving and praying.. all of a sudden I felt I needed to ask Him to forgive me for doubting Him, for fearing that this plan could leave me wanting, unhappy and sad...
I repented.. made me cry... I think this was a breakthrough..

still not sure what else there is I need "to do or be or not do" to not allow this fear to stay.. as always music was going and there was this song playing right at this moment..
a song from Audrey Assad, amazing young songwriter with an amazing voice, loved her on the Michael W Smith Cruise, very authentic and cute, really..
this was the song:

Breaking You

You've been let down, it's true

Your pain is so easy to see

You're hunted by your history

And it feels like you've got no escape

Your life left you high and dry

You used to be sure of yourself

But then your whole world went to hell

And tomorrow looks just like today

So, you lie on your bed, you won't let the morning come in

And you hide in your room, feeding that fear and it's killing you

......

And your down on your knees

Cause your life is not what you thought it would be

No,

Lift up your head

Help is on the way

And it won't pass you by

You just gotta reach out your hand

Lift up your eyes

Love is on the way

And it won't pass you by

You just gotta reach out your hand....

Psalm 121

I lift up my eyes to the mountains—

    where does my help come from?

  My help comes from the Lord,

    the Maker of heaven and earth.

as much as not all the facets of the song apply to me.. I know that Love is not only on it's way.. Love is right here with me always.. it is with me because the Author of Love, the Lord, is with me, and He will never leave me or forsake me.. So blessed, so very, very blessed..