.. That's it, for now anyways... The END....

it's now been almost 4 years that I have been writing a blog.
going through deep pain, heartache and huge changes in my life at the time, I needed the outlet and the response I got made me continue sharing what the Lord was doing in my life...

lately, I have not felt that need that much anymore and almost feel very self absorbed and full of myself thinking others really want to know what's all going on inside of me.. heart, soul and mind...

so I might just be done with this phase of my life and that is, in so many ways, a good thing..

my Lord and Saviour continues teaching me, ( thankfully He won't give up until the day He takes me home and I get to gaze into His tender eyes for the first time ) life continues throwing garbage and hurt and just "regular dysfunction stuff" at me... so nothing has changed much..

what He has been teaching me in the last 3 or 4 months is that rather than processing by writing a blog, sending prayer requests out etc. I need to come to Him more. Him alone.

Him and I, we are this team, we are always hanging out together, and as I am ( in my head, heart and soul ) preparing to be all alone as in single empty nester in a few months, once again, His timing is perfect.

I have said Good bye to trying (through means available at my fingertips at any time) to find that man that might be out there a year ago or so .. and so I am continuing to surrender the need for companionship, affection and connecting to Him ( daily, hourly..sometimes every minute ;)

 Him and I, we are walking along this path, that is my very own, different from everyone else's and yet so similar to others, we are communing, sharing our deepest thoughts and insights and when it gets too tough, He shares in my tears as well....

He is calling me to a deeper place.. calling me to take my eyes off myself... so as to walk in a manner worthy of Him.. always pleasing to Him, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of Him...

He is calling me to rather than stay in the place of sadness and loneliness to fix my eyes on Him, and others, loving them the way He loves me. blessing them through intentionally spending time and giving of myself..

so, long story short. I think my blogging days are kind of over.... for now. anyways.. thanks for journeying with me, you know who you are. I appreciate y'all!!!

.....shootings, fires and chemotherapy.... DO NOT FEAR.. for I am with you...

someone I know lost her baby 40 minutes after she was born 2 days ago.
there was a shooting at my daughter's law school on Thursday night.
a dear friend's nephew almost died in an apartment fire Friday morning . two of his friends didn't survive.
a friend was rushed to hospital two nights ago.
a little boy with aggressive cancer struggling to make it through most aggressive chemo.

and that's just my little world.

2 more marriage break ups in my close circle.
another few fighting cancer.
a little girl talking about how she will kill herself to a friend, who is a counsellor in school. far too young to be that hopeless..

and so it goes on.
and that's still just my little world.

praying without ceasing for them. lifting them up to the Almighty God. trusting Him for them.

 Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;

    I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

 When you pass through the waters,

    I will be with you;

and when you pass through the rivers,

    they will not sweep over you.

When you walk through the fire,

    you will not be burned;

    the flames will not set you ablaze.

 For I am the Lord your God,

    the Holy One of Israel, your Savior

Isaiah 43: 1-3

And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. 

Romans 8:28

Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? 

 As it is written:

“For your sake we face death all day long;

    we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered.”

 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.  For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,  neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:35-39

"just" some scriptures, Words from God to us. Jesus comforting us, considering He is the Word, become flesh.. this world. a tough place. sin and sickness and darkness and pain. no one can escape it. at some point, in some way. it will touch us. and not just once.

and yet. we have hope. because of Him. Him alone. comfort and hope and peace. always right there.

praying for my brothers and sisters going through such difficult times. I know He loves them more than I do.

#SoliDeoGloria

..Love so amazing...

it's been an emotional weekend..
Friday night, "Son of God" the movie....

it's almost 20 years ago now that my Father in Heaven took away the blinders from my eyes, unstopped my ears and revealed Himself to me.

since then I have been walking this path, this journey, with Him. feeling overwhelmed by His love.. more and more.
seeing this movie on Friday... being reminded who He was / is, what He did, for me... the emotions have been running high.. what can I say...

amazing 4 hour seminar at church yesterday, worship service this morning and a Christian concert tonite..

my morning time alone with my Daddy in heaven, wonderful as always... deep satisfaction and delight. a never ending fountain of love, encouragement, wisdom, strength and joy...

my heart bursting with love and gratitude..
gratitude for that even before the beginning of the world, He chose me, to be His beloved, holy and blameless.. because of what He would do for me...

choosing to be living for Him, passionately, loving, forgiving and serving Him, enjoying His presence as I go about my day... that's the only way to respond to a love like this...

Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.  Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.  And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

Colossians 3:12-14

SOLI DEO GLORIA