Wednesday, June 8, 2016

.. single and struggling with loneliness???? been there, but HE was there with me...



a few years ago, a little less than 5 to be exact.. during the first year of being "single" "left" "dismissed" and "discarded"... struggling with loneliness and rejection, this is what I wrote:

You whisper..
You want my attention
My undivided attention...
focus..
no distractions..
What were You saying??

"Wait"

Wait?
What do you mean?

"Wait"

But why??

"Wait"

But you don't understand..

"Wait"

But I need to know...
Why aren't You telling me..

"Just wait"

But I can't...

"With Me all things are possible"

But Why... why can't You just tell me?

"Trust Me
 Don't settle for second best..
I have something amazing planned for you"

But Lord... How?

"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High 
will rest in the shadow of the Almighty."

But....

" I Satisfy you in the morning with my unfailing love, 
that you may sing for joy and be glad all your days.
Draw near to Me and I will draw near to you"

But Lord... I am lonely..

"For your Maker is your husband— the LORD Almighty is His name— 
the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth."

You are?
 
" I am.. and I delight over you with singing
I love you with an everlasting love my child"

Thank You, Lord... 

I praise you

And I will wait on you..
and trust You forever more.


the struggle was real and I struggled and waited and struggled some more and waited some more.. and then, when the time was right ( apparently ) I met " the something amazing He had planned for me"... today I have been married to this man for almost 10 months.. not only has my relationship to my Father in Heaven become deeper and stronger throughout those years,  I am also blessed beyond anything I could have ever imagined or even asked for. so ... if you are single.. lonely and tempted to settle for second best... DON'T...... He means it... JUST WAIT on Him.. <3